For the first time in my life I’ve been “let go”. Levi got
hurt while I was throwing up in the bathroom and not paying attention to him.
With Jack biting phase and the other little bumps and bruises Levi got in my
care they decided they had enough. And now I’m jobless for the longest space of
time in 10 years. I’ve always worked; I enjoy working, and I mostly enjoy a
paycheck. I know that raising our children is my “job” right now, but it’s hard
because it doesn’t feel the same. Things are a lot tighter now too with the
loss of income but through the amazing miracle of tithing we somehow are able
to make it even though it doesn’t seem possible.
Back to me throwing up, this is old news to a lot of you and
I didn’t intend it to take this long to make a public announcement but that’s
how my pregnancies go. I’m due November 26th with a little girl. We
are very blessed to be able to have children when we want them and have them be
healthy-so far! I am so excited for her to finally come so I can get back to my
normal self. Just like with Jack, pregnancy does not do well with me. I’m sick
and tired all the time and am ready for some relief. At about 32 weeks I still
throw up occasionally, am still taking my zofran, and “sleep” 10 hours a night.
The first 20 weeks were death. I couldn’t cook or clean or play with Jack. I
felt like I had put myself on bed rest because all I could do was lie on the
couch trying not to die. I would go to bed at night so excited to sleep but
also so depressed because soon it would be morning and I’d have to go through
another day. It was a hard time for everyone. (Thanks so much to the several
people in my ward who watched Jack and brought over multiple meals, and to
Catherine for her generous, fun, and so helpful care packages!) It was a huge
accomplishment when at 20 weeks I was able to go grocery shopping again and
make dinner for my family. We will not be having a lot of kids because I (and
our family) just cannot handle the pregnancy.
I think I am even more excited for this baby to be born than
I was with Jack because I know how great it is to have a little baby and I know
that there will be instant relief from all the pregnancy symptoms after she’s
born.
Who knows if Jack really understands what is going to
happen. He will talk about his little sister and talks to my belly and knows
that after the baby comes he can go see the lights at the temple with Grandma
and Grandpa. So we’ll take that for now.
My first belly shot this pregnancy. I don’t know why, I just
have a hard time taking them. I’m big and I’m afraid of how much bigger I’ll
get.
Otherwise, we have decided we really like September in Maryland . The weather is
nice with cooler, less humid air, and the bugs are a tiny bit more subdued. The
leaves are just barely starting to turn. I’ve never been more excited for
winter to come in my whole life. Chris turned 28 on Friday and we had a fun
little party for him. We have a big hole in our wall that we need to fix. Jack
has finally learned to eat with utensils. Really, life is good and we don’t
need to complain.
